Opinion about violence

Violence is violence .

But violence is not violence.

Violence is too much desire.

Violence is shelter.

Violence is way of seeking true self.

If we are at Zen mind.

We can connect true self.

Keep on walking.

With my son.

With teacher Jundo.

Dharma friends at Antaiji.

We can apart from violence.

About violence

I suffered violence from my parents.

My parents also suffered violence from their parents.

Difficult to stop violence.

Childhood I suffered lots of dangerous situation.

But I did effort by myself to keep family.

In boyhood I can’t see my face.

I tried to lots of solution by myself.Playing soccer,playing alpen skiing.

Especially alpen skiing at Austria changed my mind.

After graduated University I worked as elite.

But I realized that I was a kind of toy of parents.

Fact my father suddenly run away from my house .But lots of  loan by father and ,also father had another family.My mother lose mind and had knife and said to me terrible word.

This is a part of my violence from my parents.

But one sun shine has come.

Zen.Zazen.

Zazen, especially Shikantaza teach me,we can live moment by moment.And I met lots of friends who suffered violence.

I have my son.And I pray for safe of him.

Again I pray for safe of him.

To be continue.

Antaiji

Coming to Antaiji.

I decide to go to Antaiji

After Zazenkai with Muho,I decide to go to Antaiji.

So I prepare to go there.

Moving small house and keep conditon,but I sufferd at big vertigo every time.

I feel fear everyday.

But I feel something fortune about there.

I release lots of things with crying.

First time Muho do not allow to go there,but my teacher send letter to him and I call several times to there.

Finally he allow me to go there.

Can not forget this period forever.

And start new journey.

Gassho 

Introduce Zazenkai with Muho at Antaiji

My Zen teacher introduce Zazenkai with Muho at Antaiji.

My older sister lived in Germany,and I went Germany several time for training of alpine ski,also Muho is German.

And I also meet Logo therapy by VE Frankl who lived in Autrtia.

So I feel something inside.

This is YouTube video at that time.

New pilgrimage at Tokyo

After few days ago new pilgrimage started.

I work at shop of vegetable.
We sale good vegetable but we do not have enough time to sales.

And I also have less time to voluntee and work.
I need to decide balance of life.

But at that time,I decide throw mind,I throw my mind.

But after I throw my mind,situation change.

Lots of people help me,donate me,and give job.

So I can do good start.

Everyday I work 6AM to 18AM several place.And in weekend also start working.

I feel I ride a flow of fortune.


And also I decide that I will not refuse everything.
I will say Yes everytime.If I can not accept happening,something will help.

Here we go!!!,new pilgrimage of life

After go back to Tokyo

I decide to help handycap person.

But I have no connection.

When I walking outside,some handycap person call me and say,please buy this watermelon,yummy ^_^

And boss of him call me,please come in!

So I talk with him.He is owner of NPO.

And he said to me,please become leader of us!

I am really surprised to his suggestions,but I accept.

But we have no money.

Our challenge start!

We are poor but our mind is calm.