1st temple to 7th temple

At 1st temple ,l am really surprised.

I can't say detail... but...

After leave there I start walking Takuhatsu style under summer heat.

Lots of people donate,meals,drinks,and so on.

And I met at a woman.She said to me,please give me money because she doesn't have money.I said to her,do you have house?She said Yes.Where?About 2 hour from here.

I adviced her,I can't give money but if you will believe Buddha and walk Henro few days,somebody support you.And go back to home and go to city government.

But she didn't accept.Police come and she scream big voice and ...

After such time old couple talk to me,do you want ride our car and go next temple?I say yes.

In the car woman said to me,her son died at young age,so everyweek she come to Henro.

And she said,I seems like her son.

After leaving there I stayed kind of Henro house,500 yen need to stay...Very old house and only water and toilet can use but enough for me.

My survival is starting..

To be continued.

I meet lots of Buddhist.

I meet

MrT at Osaka,he lived in Canada for long year.

Monk MrM ,he is a monk of Shingen Sect.

Monk MrS,he is a monk of Ringai Sect.

Thank you for donate me.

Ready to Henro pilgrimage

Before Henro,I stay Osaka 3 days.

MrT help me to stay and teach about Henro.

And Monk MrM and MrS advice me and donate me at Osaka.

And I go to near 1st temple and meet MrM.

He donate me and give material.And he introduce me master of Henro,who did Henro 10 times.

After leave there,I go to 1st temple.

No war ,no violence

My grandfather died at WW2,and killed lots of people.

After war my father's family lose their core of family.And my mother's family always suffer violence.

I can't accept every war and violence.

Accept little bit violence?

No!

Seed of violence,hurt mind of kids.

I say again .No war no violence.

I do ceremony of my younger brother and sister.

I decide to do ceremony for my younger brother and sister.

They already died,at 1 years old.

My father have several family at long time.

He lied...

When he was at drink alcohol,he said this fact.

I lose word when I hear about it.

And my father don't accept to do ceremony.

So I do ceremony only by myself at temple.

When I am at celemony.

I can't stop crying.

I haven't money,so I get kind of memorial goods.

And I call them ,Nina and Iroha.

Nina means 27.

Iro means 16.

In Japanese.They died at I was at 27 and 16 years old.So they don't have name.

So I start walking with them.

To be continued...

Start working,meet Zen

After big desision.

I start working at school.

Suffer under big vertigo.

But I need money...

Very hard situation,I am crying everynight.And I can't eat meal...

But I sleep early night and wake up early morning.

At Saturday,I watch TV,Kokoro no Judai.

About mind.

I watch program Mr Yamada ,who is translator of V.E.Frankl

https://cs.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Viktor_Frankl

He is Austrian psychologist and survivor at Holocaust.

Famous book of this.Written by him.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Man%27s_Search_for_Meaning

Mr Yamada said ,Frankl style and Zen is nearly equal.

When person seek something to outside,if nothing get,sometimes person despire.But we can change direction 180 degree.

I feel I struck by thunder.

To be continue.

Big desision

I do big desision.

I decide to separate family.

And I give all money to family.

Like Buddha.

My son is 1 years old.

So my pain was terrible.

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