After give up,finally meet Zen teacher

After give up,but I can't forget ego.

I keep on searching answer at out side.

So I went lots of place and met lots of people.

Do fasting,go temple of Shingon Sect,meet father.

But finally I meet Zen teacher.

He is American ,who live in Japan.

So I ask him in bad English.

He said to me.Welcome!And Zazen is fun!

Fun?

No,I am at serious situation,so I want to sit hard,inside my voice...

To be continued..