Antaiji

Coming to Antaiji.

I decide to go to Antaiji

After Zazenkai with Muho,I decide to go to Antaiji.

So I prepare to go there.

Moving small house and keep conditon,but I sufferd at big vertigo every time.

I feel fear everyday.

But I feel something fortune about there.

I release lots of things with crying.

First time Muho do not allow to go there,but my teacher send letter to him and I call several times to there.

Finally he allow me to go there.

Can not forget this period forever.

And start new journey.

Gassho 

Introduce Zazenkai with Muho at Antaiji

My Zen teacher introduce Zazenkai with Muho at Antaiji.

My older sister lived in Germany,and I went Germany several time for training of alpine ski,also Muho is German.

And I also meet Logo therapy by VE Frankl who lived in Autrtia.

So I feel something inside.

This is YouTube video at that time.

New pilgrimage at Tokyo

After few days ago new pilgrimage started.

I work at shop of vegetable.
We sale good vegetable but we do not have enough time to sales.

And I also have less time to voluntee and work.
I need to decide balance of life.

But at that time,I decide throw mind,I throw my mind.

But after I throw my mind,situation change.

Lots of people help me,donate me,and give job.

So I can do good start.

Everyday I work 6AM to 18AM several place.And in weekend also start working.

I feel I ride a flow of fortune.


And also I decide that I will not refuse everything.
I will say Yes everytime.If I can not accept happening,something will help.

Here we go!!!,new pilgrimage of life

After go back to Tokyo

I decide to help handycap person.

But I have no connection.

When I walking outside,some handycap person call me and say,please buy this watermelon,yummy ^_^

And boss of him call me,please come in!

So I talk with him.He is owner of NPO.

And he said to me,please become leader of us!

I am really surprised to his suggestions,but I accept.

But we have no money.

Our challenge start!

We are poor but our mind is calm.

I decide to finish Henro

After I leave Henro house,I start walking to 18th temple.

But I suffered summer heat and almost no money.

So I decide to stay cheap hotel and volunteer place several day.

And I start sitting Zazen and sleep to cool down and working.

In morning I hear terrible news.

North Korea firing a missile near Japan.

So I realize we always suffer at die.

If we suffer such situation ,I feel I must do what I want to do.

So I follow my heart and decide to go back Tokyo.

Just go back Tokyo.

And I feel something happen to me.

I know when I connect true myself honesty,something good happening.

I ride a cheap highway bus and go back to Tokyo.

After give up,finally meet Zen teacher

After give up,but I can't forget ego.

I keep on searching answer at out side.

So I went lots of place and met lots of people.

Do fasting,go temple of Shingon Sect,meet father.

But finally I meet Zen teacher.

He is American ,who live in Japan.

So I ask him in bad English.

He said to me.Welcome!And Zazen is fun!

Fun?

No,I am at serious situation,so I want to sit hard,inside my voice...

To be continued..