Give up everything

I give up fight with lawyer.

And I give up to live.

So I go to place where healing hotel near grave of my older brother.

At hotel I heal myself and cool down.

At there I meet monk M ,he is monk of Shingo n sect.

He said to me ,please give up to live in ego.

I cry lots of tear.But something change in side.

To be continued.

I meet practitioner of Buddhism

At Henro house I meet Buddhism practitioner.

He studied lots of Sect of Buddhism.

And he traveled around 10 year with only one bag pack.

I really enjoyed to talk with him.

So I give him Dharma clothes.And he give me his chant book.

He is not monk.But he is Buddha.

I realized.

Nine bow to him and all practitioner and all being.

Fight with lawyer

I suffered big trouble,depend on my bad attitude.

So I need to fight to lawyer.

He has lots of weapons to fight with me.

Finally I become ,I can not sleep ,walk.

So I give up to work.

I just want to save my son.Only this my ego is important for me at that time.

To be continued...

Walk to 16th temple and Zazen,rest,Takuhatsu

After leave Henro hotel near 12th temple,I walk 20km .

Very hard to walk in mountain,but river heal my leg and thirst.

But very tired.

So today I sit Zazen.I found sleeping bag is good Zafu.

And do Takuthatsu and rest day.

Nine bows.

Next day of finish to vow at 12th temple

In the morning ,I go to Zendo.

But monk is not at Zendo.

Yesterday he said to me throw out plate outside.

 But I can not found.

And Zendo is very dirty.

And go back hotel,and I heard about it by owner.

She said ,he is fake monk ,and just want money...

I decide to give up taking plate.

Plate is not plate,before I will chanting.

So I call goods shop near here and ,can you make plate?

He said OK!

So I make plate by myself,but my money will almost empty.

But I decide,I will help my younger brother or sister.

If I suffer big trouble.

 I do not regret.Gassho 

11th temple to 12th temple

I leave near 11th temple at 7AM

I send baggege to my home,because too heavy to climb mountain today.

First I start walking alone.

This challenge is very hard,I climb mountain 0m to 700m,and lots of up and down and 12km distance.

And I suffer from fear of bee and snake,they have lots of poison.

After I walk about 5km,I meet a 4members group,old man and young woman and person who come from Bergium.

We help each other,in English and Japanese.

Everybody is very tired and some person have injure.

At a rest time ,I do short Dharma talk.

After 8 hour passed we arrive at 12th temple.

After arriving ,we walk own way.

I walk to small Zendo,but I call to monk but he doesn't answer.

Around 6PM become getting sun set,so I worry about only alone...

Such time 2 old man who walk together today ,walk around small Zendo.

And I talk to them.

I am very troubled,tired and no money and monk doesn't answer.

So they suggest me to come with them and stay small house.And they donate me,because they think my Dharma talk was helpful.

So I decide to accept this suggestion.

After arriving home,monk call me and say ,why did you not come Zendo?I am very angry.

So please come right now by walk for 1 hour climb mountain at dark night.

So I said to him.He was at Temple name J ,he is kind of my Dharma older brother but,your attitude is not good,this is not Buddhism.

After we take dinner ,I hear owner of home,monk of Zendo is not good person.So your choise is reasonable.

So I realize ,follow my mind is very important.

Maybe he is not bad monk,but maybe he has too much ego.

My journey will continue...

Come back to work and pray again

After come back my home,I work more hard,to forget myself.

But I suffer at vertigo,like big earthquakes.

Such time lawyer call me suddenly,he broke our promise.

But I work harder and harder to my son.

I was very tired ,so I go back my country home at end of year.

My country home is at cold side,but my mind become hot.

Before go back my home,I went to place big earthquake.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/2011_T%C5%8Dhoku_earthquake_and_tsunami

I went there sometimes.

But nothing stay there.

Nothing stay there.

Nothing stay there.

Everybody died

And Everybody died.